The fact that my mother now knows that some of my first ships were in the original beyblade fandom and currently refers to my shipping of characters as “Gayblading” is enough reason to make me paranoid about her own ships. I already know she ships stony and clinttasha in avengers fandom, but now I’m more curious…
I need to stop doing this, but every time I create a new character, the first thing I start thinking of and writing down is everything that could rip the character into tiny little pieces and break them the point of giving up/killing themselves. I make a good character and try to shatter them. I abuse my characters. I torture my characters.
It’s terrible, but I kind of test new characters like this. If I think of a character, I want to see how much they can take and still refuse to quit - I test a fictional characters limits.
I’m probably sadistic, but it helps me create more interesting characters. Reading about how much one can survive and still keep living with determination is way more interesting - to me personally - than just watching a character buckle and have to constantly be saved by secondary characters or the mesmerizing power of friendship. If a character is determined to keep going, in spite of adversity, loneliness, or tragic loss, they are interesting and inspire strength in me as a reader.
Power of friendship is nice sometimes, but to be a badass alone and then gain support is really awesome.
me 11:59 September 30th
me 12:00 October 1st
I bought the junior novelization of Big Hero 6 - 75 pages in and not disappointed yet!
No spoilers for you guys though, cause it’s actually really funny and cute. My best comment is: Baymax is a sweetheart. 💞
Yes, all of you… I have many many kinds of loves…
Even if you don’t “accomplish” anything, getting out of bed is something to be proud of.
Guys, I think I’m a shoujo protagonist…
I talked an upset coworker out of quitting his job yesterday with a little speech about thinking positive and an orange flavor lollipop. Today he treated me like we were best buddies and was super nice, saying I helped him with what I said. He wants to hang out and play kingdom hearts sometime, even.
I kind of want to cry right now cause I didn’t realize how much a little emotional support helped someone, it’s really amazing❗ 😁
I kind of felt it today - talking to someone and realizing that in the middle of the conversation I’m holding that person at a distance. It’s a reflex. I walk away randomly too, when I feel like they’re getting too close. I can’t get close to people anymore, it makes me uncomfortable to be physically or emotionally close to people unless I initiate the contact, cause then it’s all on my terms and I can walk away any time I want. I probably come off as rude or cold, but it’s my last line of defense and I let it fall at times before when I shouldn’t have. I want to be closer to people, but I mentally can’t handle being close anymore, to the point of growing sick. I’m tired of getting hurt and I think I lost that trait of being able to bond with people on a deeper level. I have no idea what to do or where to go from here… I’m kind of lost now…
The gods met on my dash - apparently Asstrology is now a thing.
When the world inside you is growing so large that finally you burst and have to passionately tell someone everything that your mind has created - and hope they don’t think your sanity has finally slipped.
I just spent 3 hours telling my parents everything I’ve been dreaming of, writing about, and coming up with for the last 5 years and begged them not to laugh. They didn’t laugh or even stop me, but listened to me for once. I got it all out and they just told me to tell them more - they loved hearing me explain my inner world and want me to write it out. My mom exactly said “Write books about this so I can read everything before I die.”
I don’t think you guys know how relieved I feel right now. My parents 100% support me pursuing what I want and understand. I think I just broke the biggest obstacle in my own anxiety. I’m crying right now. 😂
Good night lovelies~ 😴
please just watch this
"It’s one second." I said
"It can’t possible be that great."
I was wrong.
Do you know HOW MANY TIMES I REWATCHED THIS?! *replays again*
Just a few hours after star Ryan Reynolds opened up about the reaction to the Deadpool leaked footage, 20th Century Fox has announced they are moving forward with the film and given it a February 12, 2016 release date, just three months before the upcoming X-Men: Apocalypse. Ryan Reynolds is expected to star with director Tim Miller at the helm and a script by Zombieland writers Rhett Reese and Paul Wernick.